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let me apologize for my lack of blogging.
unfortunately i was [deathly] ill with an upper respiratory infection.
it was nasty. i am of course still not over it but i am finally capable of sitting at a computer long enough to form coherent thoughts.

when we last "spoke" i was waiting for a chest binder to arrive, and so it has.
i was, to say the least, disappointed. it does the same as my small sports bra. it does however feel more comfortable than the bra. i've concluded that there is only so much you can do to hide D's.

bottom line: i need to lose weight (in my tits).

monday i'm going to the tae kwon do school where my high school teacher works. there are adult beginner classes at 11am on tues and thurs. i think i will sign up for those even though i was a green belt. i technically could start with the higher belts but i don't remember much. and by much i mean anything.

i'm hoping this will help my self-everything.

i want my chest binder to arrive!

the binding bind.

today i spent an hour in front of my mirror
with ace bandages,
countless sports bras
(all smaller than my actual size),
and duck tape.

i wasn't brave enough to try the duct tape.
and the ace bandages proved to be very difficult
to wrap around my own chest.
i contemplated asking someone to help me
try different binding methods.

my options:
-a family member- yeah right.
-my best friends- both female and straight.
i have a feeling that might be slightly awkward for them.
-a trans friend- the only one i know well enough to ask is not an option.
-a close lesbian friend- hmm. too much sexual tension there.
no idea how she would feel about that. even though i wouldn't mind.

so i guess that means i'll just have to give it another shot.
maybe my arms will get longer by then.

in the end, i chose a sports bra, a size XS under armour shirt, and a gray sweater.
i felt decently comfortable.