thoughts.

i have a nice outfit for tonight,
i'm excited.

lately the biggest problem has been my ass.
its hard to wear guys jeans with a huge ass and pass.
even though i don't really know if i want to pass.
i guess i wouldn't be much of a genderfuck at all then.
but genderfuck for me is more about my total disregard for gender.
i think it's completely useless and discriminatory.
and passing for me is more about not being treated like a female (society's stereotypical female)
i want to be judged on character and personality, not my tits.
but in a hetero-normative society my facial features and clothing choice don't match up.
some people are just ignorant.
maybe 2009 will bring about the dawn of a new era, where trans people are treated just like kelly the cheerleader with her gucci bag, uggs and perfectly highlighted straight hair.
then people won't mind when they see me in my steel toe boots, spikey hair, and button down shirt.
yeah right.

happy new year.
don't drive drunk.