today i spent an hour in front of my mirror
with ace bandages,
countless sports bras
(all smaller than my actual size),
and duck tape.
i wasn't brave enough to try the duct tape.
and the ace bandages proved to be very difficult
to wrap around my own chest.
i contemplated asking someone to help me
try different binding methods.
my options:
-a family member- yeah right.
-my best friends- both female and straight.
i have a feeling that might be slightly awkward for them.
-a trans friend- the only one i know well enough to ask is not an option.
-a close lesbian friend- hmm. too much sexual tension there.
no idea how she would feel about that. even though i wouldn't mind.
so i guess that means i'll just have to give it another shot.
maybe my arms will get longer by then.
in the end, i chose a sports bra, a size XS under armour shirt, and a gray sweater.
i felt decently comfortable.
Thursday, January 1, 2009
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Hi Hayden...Love your name btw. (my son is Ayden) Thanks for your very sweet comment on my blog. Your blog is very interesting and will have to check in from time to time. If ever you need an unbiased someone to listen- you know where to find me. ~S.
That's ok. A pen name works just as well... It's not what people call you in life- it's what you answer to. And just remember that until you learn to love you- no one else will ever be able to fill the void in your life. I am assuming you are in your twenties. Your twenties (In my opinion) are for figuring out who you are. So try not to be so hard on yourself. Happy New Year to you too! ~S.
Hey. I didn't realize until just now that this was something on your mind recently...I'm glad I got to read this. I guess there's a lot of things I miss when I'm not around. Anyway, listen, I remember some of the things you told me about side-effects from a conversation a while ago...I guess thinking about that in your life now seems so much of a complication. Would you consider it in maybe a few years? Looking at your other posts and just judging on your interest/knowledge before on the issue, it should stay a consideration...? Anyways, love you! and miss you...Life here has been in the stinker (with the flu) haha.
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